I have been told more than once that I am too nice. I am getting to a point now in my life where I realize the whole definition of insanity is (doing the same thing over and over again)truer words never spoken! I have realized that there comes a point that I am not going to keep being so nice that I get taken advantage of. I am going to quit being so nice that I feel guilty saying or speaking my mind for fear of hurting ones feelings. Maybe I am more of a people pleaser than a NICE person. Or both. I dunno. Either way here and now things are going to change. No longer will I keep doing those insane little things like responding the crazy ex' texts, better yet I just blocked his bahookie. It felt very empowering.
I saw a lady on Dr. Phil one time that kept going to the same hairdresser for over ten years even though she hated her haircuts because she was afraid to say anything. I know I am not that bad! But then again, if I keep reverting to the same things because I am afraid to just speak my mind because it might hurt someone’s feelings, does that make me any different? Why am I such a people pleaser? I am thirtyfreakingthree years old gosh darn it. I need to just STOP giving a rats arse what other people think, and maybe just maybe hurt some feelings, if the time and place calls for it.
I have done a few things in the past few weeks that I wouldn't say were necessarily mean but they were not in my usual "nice" girl demeanor. And boy does it feel good. I am too old to keep doing the same mistakes, or reinventing a new version of the same mistake. It's a New Year, time for new me, new mean me...Or just a feistier version!
Anyone that has some suggestions and insights as to not being afraid to speak my mind and saying what I mean and mean what I say, I would love to hear it! I am excited about what 2011 has to offer. I have some exciting new things up my sleeve and I can tell it is going to be a good year!
